Facing the aftermath...
Thursday, 11 October 2007 @ 10/11/2007 05:33:00 am
I got caught red handed by beating the red light. I just only got my license and now, that offense will deduct all the 12 points I have plus a fine of $200. I was so sad, only just got my license for a couple of weeks and now, I have to face this. I drove down to her house after that and she leaned over to give me a hug, trying to console me. She refused to let go, till I felt some wetness on my shoulder. She was crying!! She knew that I was sad and she shared that sadness with me. She cried for me. I was heartbroken to see her crying. I pulled her infront of me, and wiped off those tears with my fingers. I was so touched I gave her a hug this time, a tighter one… and told her ‘I love you’. But those three words were not enough to express how deeply I felt for her.
What is love?
Love is sharing everything of the other half. Be it troubles, worries, happiness, money, whatever! I believe I’ve found my love this time. Someone that will actually cry for you? That’s something I’ve never come across in my life. I’ve found that someone of my life... My Bao Bei is so sweet, she’s so cute. The prettiest person I’ve ever seen in my life and undoubtedly the person I love the most.
That is how much I love(d) her. ..
This is what exactly I wanted to post on my blog that very night when I got home but I didn’t. For I feared my inexperience with writing such things would make it sound stupid. But now I only have regrets for posting this only at this point of time.
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‘Have you had your dinner?’ My auntie asked me.
‘Nope, not yet. But I’m heading out for dinner right after this. With my friends.’
‘Oh… Not meeting your girlfriend for dinner ah?’ She tried to tease me.
‘… Uh… She’s not free today…’
Auntie came over to my house in the afternoon and grandma had a heavy bag of groceries for her. Grandma insisted that I send her back home by car because that bag of groceries was too heavy for her to carry. I had to lie that I was about to go out and it was out of the way for I didn’t have the car with me. It was still undergoing repairs at the workshop, won’t be ready until evening and I didn’t want them to know I met with an accident last night. I offered to deliver the bag of groceries to her later in the evening. And so she left without the bag.
Auntie had doted on me the most since I was a little boy. When I became 18, she’d always ask if I had a girlfriend and would always urge me to find one. Until recently when I told her I had a girlfriend, she has been eagerly wanting to see her ever since.
I went to collect the car, 6:30pm. Drove back home, took the bag of groceries and drove down to her house. She met me at the void deck and as I passed the bag of groceries to her,
‘Have you had your dinner?’
‘Nope, not yet. But I’m heading out for dinner right after this. With my friends.’
‘Oh... Not meeting your girlfriend for dinner ah?’
‘… Uh… She’s not free today…’
I didn’t know how to break the news to her. That the woman I wanted so eagerly to show to her (as well) no longer chooses to stay by my side. I left quickly after wishing her good bye…
