She finally replied!

Its so nice to see an SMS by her together with a picture of her's that accompanies the message. Haven't recieved that in a couple of days, I couldn't wait to open it up to check what was her reply. The conversation only lasted a few messages. But I'll cherish each and everyone of them regardless of the content. For these few messages could well be the last few that we will have as a couple.

Never have I loved a women so much I said a bunch of words in the SMS I never thought I would in my life. I guess I have gotten really too deep into this relationship to let it go just like that. The past few days have been a misery for me. I just hope everything will turn for the better. Or I don't know how I will be able to cope, with life not having her by my side...

Pictures are all that I have left to look at. She would not meet me. Neither do I think she'll answer my phone calls. I'm just glad that she still gives the occasional reply to the SMS's that I sent. Looking at the pictures of her, I recalled some of the beautiful memories that we share; The roadshow... The singing... The 50 dollar cab fare... The surprise visit at my house... Waking up in the morning with her by my side... The present... Miss Apple Martini...
Lots and lots of beautiful memories... I just hope I'll be given a chance to continue accumulating them...

By the most important person in my life...







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My life in a few days, have hit an all time low. With all the current issues, comes even more issues.

My pay, is once again delayed...
I've been having sleepless nights...
My pocket is already burnt. But I'm still further hit with a $200 fine.
My driving license is in jeopardy everytime I drive.
I just got back home from a basketball game my team lost. Not on foot. But by having two teammates lift me back home. I sprained my ankle, on the same left foot that hasn't really recovered all these time. The team already shorthanded, and having me out with injury after having less than 5 mins of play time; to watch their exhausted faces, using each and every remaining ounce of enery, dragging their every step up and down the court. I felt useless... At lost... I couldn't watch... I can't walk, and we lost.

I'm hungry now... There's no food at home, and I can't get out of the house...

I'm in a state of depression... Now confined at home... As if living in a box...