I’m half a Malaysian. Most of my relatives from both my parent’s sides are mostly at Malaysia. My parents were both Malaysians till they converted into Singapore citizens. I only have one aunt each from both sides together with me here in Singapore (so that pretty much explains why every time during the Lunar New Year, my ang bao money very little. Hehe).

Well, being from Singapore. Its no wonder why my relatives back in Malaysia will look upon us ‘Singaporean relatives’ more. Its always a rather big hoo-ha whenever we go back to Malaysia to visit our relatives. Most, sometimes even all my relatives from all parts of Malaysia will make the effort to gather whenever we go back there.

Every time we go back to Malaysia, relatives will always ask if I have a girlfriend. Because they never heard of me having one all these years while all my other cousins already have theirs. And when news broke that I finally HAD one, all of them were rather eager to see her. Its now November and my cousin here in Singapore is going to have her ROM. My parents have been asked, I have been asked too, that whether she would she would be there. Relatives from Malaysia coming down to Singapore are eager to see her. My parents didn’t know how to tell my relatives, so did I. So we came out with a common lie; that she will not be able to attend.

My brother’s wedding will be on December and almost all of them will be coming down to Singapore for the wedding. I don’t know how I’ll be able to face the bombardment of questions from all my relatives.

I’ve been feeling lonely today. Probably tomorrow too. I’m just glad that someone else out there is having fun. Unlike how I am feeling now, and will be. Let me just absorb all my sorrows so as not to affect the other people around who loves and cares for me.